The day started out with some super intense arm & abdominal PT. So much for muscle recovery, huh? The males in my platoon don’t seem to understand that the females can’t do 300 pull-ups right after doing 8000 tricep dips. We (more like "I") physically can’t keep up – it’s pathetic. Tomorrow is our big Battalion run and they’re overworking us. I need to be careful here in order to prevent injuries.
The WTBD & IMT today was really low key. We did a little bit of low/high crawling and 3-5 second rush as well as a SKED litter drag, but it was nothing too extreme. It was basically just classroom time but in a different setting. Super hot though. Super duper hot! I sweat through my ACUs at 10:00.
I doubted myself a lot today. I worry too much about what people think. Maybe they think I’m dead weight because I’m not a PT stud, or I sometimes forget my chain of command. I want to improve, but it’s hard when you feel like you’re the worst at everything. I haven’t quite found my niche yet. Typically, I can say with confidence that I’m good at something. I’m not good at a whole lot of things at OCS, and it really brings down my morale. I’ve just gotta stay positive and stop believing all of these rumors going around on the CNN (candidate news network).
On the bright side, I was elected by my Platoon Trainer (SFC Harris) to be our Platoon’s S1, which is basically a secretary. I am in charge of getting everyone’s paperwork and documents in order. Sounds like a fairly straight-forward position, and this way I can get to know my cadre better and earn some leadership points.
Overall, today was kind of bland, but at least I can say I survived it and lived to see tomorrow. That’s the trick to surviving OCS – take it one day at a time!
